One Woman...Too Many Pounds

I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I grew up fat and in college I became Morbidly Obese! I was able to loose over 70lbs on my own with diet and exercise in my early twenties. Unfortunately; I encountered a major setback for me...a cheating boyfriend; which led me to stop going to the gym and I, again, used food for comfort. At my heaviest I was over 320lbs. The day I had gastric bypass surgery (5-5-05) I weight 292.2 lbs. After surgery I lost 108# at my lowest weight; which also happened to be when I met my husband. I would bounce back and forth about 20lbs and the day I was engaged (1.18.09) I weighed 210 lbs. I joined the gym and knew I needed and wanted to loose weight before my wedding. The day of my wedding (8.14.09) I weighed 192lbs, when I came home from my honey moon 1 week later I weight 184lbs! I felt sexy and thin and happy. Oct 26th 2009 I had gained about 10-15 lbs back and had a positive pregnancy test. Our beautiful blessing; Emma Paige Morris was born 6.19.10. I gained 65+ lbs during my pregnancy, weighing in at 265lbs the day I delievered. 3.5 months later I got back on my weight loss goals and lost 20lbs immediately. My baby girl is now 8 months old and I am STUCK at 222.2 lbs! I am 18lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight (well first trimester weight really) and 40lbs away from my post-honeymoon weight. I am struggling with this journey and thought maybe, maybe I can find kindred souls to share this journey with and maybe even help others in the process. I really, Really wanted to be back to my post-honeymoon weight on my 2yr anniversary (8.14.11). That date is only 5.5 months away; approximately 8lbs a month. Seems resonable but I am struggling. Please Join me on my journey. Share your own; commiserate with me and lets support each other as we become healthy and active. I know I will never be a skinny-minnie, I will probably never wear a size smaller than 12-14; but I want and need to be healthy and active for my little girl. I do NOT want to be an embarraseement to her; like my parents were/are to me because of their size, health, and inactivity.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Sweat it Out

The gym.  Two words that used to terrify me.  Skinny people running in little spandex shorts starring at me making assumptions about why I'm fat and what I'm doing there.  I used to feel like I "had" to go to the gym; that actually made it harder to go.  Now, those two words are my friends

Maybe it was maturing, or becoming a wife and mommy; but now the gym is a place I can find some solitude and me time.  Yes, I like the gym.  Sometimes I still worry what those skinny people are thinking when they look at me walking on the treadmill or using the elliptical; but mostly I know I'm being healthy.  It feels good to take some time to be with myself and think, or walk on the treadmill while I watch a show I enjoy that I would not get to enjoy at home.  Yes the gym is a relaxing place.  I can go there when I need to get out of the house, or get out some frustrations...lifting weights is great for that (although I readily admit I need to do that more often).

So how with my busy schedule do I find time to go to the gym.  Well, I stop by after clinicals (I just found on near my clinical sites; i get a workout in and avoid rush hour traffic before coming home), but even better, I joined the gym right next to the coffee place I study at.  Yep, I have no excuses not to stop in there for at least 20min when I'm done or on my way to study! Sometimes its hard to get the energy and desire up to go on my days at home with Emma.  By the time Dave is home and able to watch her I am usually pretty tired and don't really want to go anywhere, plus working out in the eve tends to keep me awake...I guess what I really need to train is myself to become a morning person and get up early and go...yeah right.

So try to make the gym your friend.  Its really a state of mind...think of it as an escape, make a music playlist that takes you somewhere else...music that reminds you of your honeymoon, or wedding.  Or pick a time when one of your fav shows is on like I do, that you would like to enjoy in peace and work out at the same time!  Not only is it great personal time...but the workout goes by super fast cuz your watching TV...

Now like those silly commercials say..."get up and move it"
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2 comments:

  1. JenMarch 2, 2011 at 8:08 PM

    I wish I could go to the gym, Time to myself ha ha. Spent my time on the elliptical tonight talking with Evie about TinkerBell. Keep it up Beck!!

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  2. beckerbeeMarch 3, 2011 at 6:09 AM

    Love it jen! Talking about tinker bell!

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