Last night my husband and I did an impromptu dinner at red lobster. I was very pleased with myself that day because I finally broke free of the conspiring 222.2 on my scale! I was too happy and let myself eat "whatever" that was not my initial plan but it certainly happened. So This morning I had a brief stare down with my scale; knowing it would be up from the previous morning but also knowing I needed to do it. Yes it was up and yes I knew it was only myself I had to blame.
So what did I do? Wallow in self pity, anger and despair...or pick myself up and make up for it? Yes I am going to make mistakes in this journey and there will be times I will stumble. I think the biggest lesson in those moments is not completely falling; grabbing my balance and resuming a healthy diet/lifestyle
So I put on my gym clothes, packed my gym bag to shower there before work and headed to the gym! I did 45min on the elliptical (plus 5min cool down) and a 15min quick upper body circuit.
It felt good and I was proud of myself for recognizing my mistake and moving forward instead of falling down and sitting there waiting for some other thing, or person...to pick ME back up.
One Woman...Too Many Pounds
I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I grew up fat and in college I became Morbidly Obese! I was able to loose over 70lbs on my own with diet and exercise in my early twenties. Unfortunately; I encountered a major setback for me...a cheating boyfriend; which led me to stop going to the gym and I, again, used food for comfort. At my heaviest I was over 320lbs. The day I had gastric bypass surgery (5-5-05) I weight 292.2 lbs. After surgery I lost 108# at my lowest weight; which also happened to be when I met my husband. I would bounce back and forth about 20lbs and the day I was engaged (1.18.09) I weighed 210 lbs. I joined the gym and knew I needed and wanted to loose weight before my wedding. The day of my wedding (8.14.09) I weighed 192lbs, when I came home from my honey moon 1 week later I weight 184lbs! I felt sexy and thin and happy. Oct 26th 2009 I had gained about 10-15 lbs back and had a positive pregnancy test. Our beautiful blessing; Emma Paige Morris was born 6.19.10. I gained 65+ lbs during my pregnancy, weighing in at 265lbs the day I delievered. 3.5 months later I got back on my weight loss goals and lost 20lbs immediately. My baby girl is now 8 months old and I am STUCK at 222.2 lbs! I am 18lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight (well first trimester weight really) and 40lbs away from my post-honeymoon weight. I am struggling with this journey and thought maybe, maybe I can find kindred souls to share this journey with and maybe even help others in the process. I really, Really wanted to be back to my post-honeymoon weight on my 2yr anniversary (8.14.11). That date is only 5.5 months away; approximately 8lbs a month. Seems resonable but I am struggling. Please Join me on my journey. Share your own; commiserate with me and lets support each other as we become healthy and active. I know I will never be a skinny-minnie, I will probably never wear a size smaller than 12-14; but I want and need to be healthy and active for my little girl. I do NOT want to be an embarraseement to her; like my parents were/are to me because of their size, health, and inactivity.
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