One Woman...Too Many Pounds

I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I grew up fat and in college I became Morbidly Obese! I was able to loose over 70lbs on my own with diet and exercise in my early twenties. Unfortunately; I encountered a major setback for me...a cheating boyfriend; which led me to stop going to the gym and I, again, used food for comfort. At my heaviest I was over 320lbs. The day I had gastric bypass surgery (5-5-05) I weight 292.2 lbs. After surgery I lost 108# at my lowest weight; which also happened to be when I met my husband. I would bounce back and forth about 20lbs and the day I was engaged (1.18.09) I weighed 210 lbs. I joined the gym and knew I needed and wanted to loose weight before my wedding. The day of my wedding (8.14.09) I weighed 192lbs, when I came home from my honey moon 1 week later I weight 184lbs! I felt sexy and thin and happy. Oct 26th 2009 I had gained about 10-15 lbs back and had a positive pregnancy test. Our beautiful blessing; Emma Paige Morris was born 6.19.10. I gained 65+ lbs during my pregnancy, weighing in at 265lbs the day I delievered. 3.5 months later I got back on my weight loss goals and lost 20lbs immediately. My baby girl is now 8 months old and I am STUCK at 222.2 lbs! I am 18lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight (well first trimester weight really) and 40lbs away from my post-honeymoon weight. I am struggling with this journey and thought maybe, maybe I can find kindred souls to share this journey with and maybe even help others in the process. I really, Really wanted to be back to my post-honeymoon weight on my 2yr anniversary (8.14.11). That date is only 5.5 months away; approximately 8lbs a month. Seems resonable but I am struggling. Please Join me on my journey. Share your own; commiserate with me and lets support each other as we become healthy and active. I know I will never be a skinny-minnie, I will probably never wear a size smaller than 12-14; but I want and need to be healthy and active for my little girl. I do NOT want to be an embarraseement to her; like my parents were/are to me because of their size, health, and inactivity.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

The Sabotager

We all have one.  Someone who sabotages our diet.  Sometimes this person does it without realizing, sometimes they do it intentionally; maybe because they are jealous or just mean.

My primary sabotager is my husband.  I know he doesn't mean to do it; he just doesn't think about my "dietary restrictions" when he is selecting food for both of us.  Example.  Tonight he went out to get us something to eat from the grocery store (we are running dangerously low on groceries) he comes home with gourmet soup - yes I know what you are think yum...i was thinking yum too and then I was thinking Shit...there is going to be way WAY too much sodium in that for me.  Next item roasted garlic humus - good choice...but tortilla chips to dip in it?  I can't eat chips! They are full of empty calories, fat, and sodium.

So in his attempt to be sweet and thoughtful; he is unknowingly sabotaging me!  How do we stop this? I try to draw it to his attention that I can't eat those things but it doesn't seem to sink in.  The big one is that I eat very limited carbs and only complex carbs...he forgets this alot and says "want jimmy johns for dinner" hell yes i do...but I can't....or "can you eat pasta" i can but I shouldn't.  Carbs are like a layer of fat to my body; they just stick right to my thighs, hips, butt and stomach...not good.

Its hard to live with someone who is sabotaging your diet; even unknowingly..but what makes it even harder is watching what he eats, chips, crackers, sandwiches with mayo, cheese and ham, candy, chocolate, lots of ice cream, stauffers frozen dinners...yep they all sound delish to me, they are in our cabinets and fridge and they are sometimes hard to resist...I've asked him not to buy that "crap" because it is hard for me to not eat it but he buys it anyway.  I wish he would diet with me.

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